Monday, October 11, 2010
Running Away to Home
God was making an appearance and they didn't want to miss it.
The mountains rushed in waves, rolling their shoulders against each other,
throwing themselves into the arms of God.
Me too! I want to see God!
And I did. All around me.
Whenever I'm wandering, my feet beg to find their place on a mountain path.
My hands plead to turn off the light, to shut the door on a house full of laundry and dishes, to leave sentences dangling on the computer screen, the phone ringing in the kitchen.
Let's run away.
We go to the mountains and they welcome us.
We've been waiting for you.
Growing, dying, blooming, decaying,
while you spin,
do your human things.
We breathe God's breath. He pulses through our veins, sings to the earth through the water trickling on rock, whispers to us in the brush of leaves against leaves, fluttering by the wind.
We start our hike, and all thoughts of doing and earning and accomplishing somehow dissolve into the mountain air.
On the path, there is only listening. The crunch of the underbrush as we walk, the break of twigs as squirrels jump from tree to tree, the faint gurgling of water in the creek bed down below us.
There is only smelling. The decay, the leaves fallen years before, now broken into soil. The pines. The rhododendron.
There is only seeing.
The trees, stretching into the sky, reminding me of my smallness
and God's greatness.
We walk, and it strikes me.
The beauty in all the messiness.
The tangled vines. The fallen leaves, the moss, softening our footsteps.
The stumps decaying, the beetles crawling,
the life thriving in all the brokenness.
The path reminds me of what I left behind.
The way the light grows dim at times.
The way my feet lead me into uncertain places.
I must keep walking.
Sometimes you can barely see the light.
But it's there.
And if I can let my eyes adjust,
brace myself against the urge to bolt,
if I can breathe and take a look around,
I see the beauty blooming in the darkness, out of the layers of what came before and was broken.
It's right there at my feet!
I can spend a moment looking, listening.
And when the time is right, I can listen for the water.
I let God's creeksong guide me out of the darkness.
And I'm filled with gratitude.
So much can come from brokenness. From wandering.
I'm so thankful!
I see the water over rock, and I'm reminded of the stone at Horeb.
Remember the story?
God's people were so thirsty, and there was nothing to drink.
"At least when we were in slavery," they cried, "we had water! We would not die of thirst!"
God told Moses to strike the rock, and the water burst forth.
Water, out of a broken stone!
I tell the story and I remember Another One, a Rock, broken to offer living water to all.
Wash me in it, God! Soak me!
Where do you go when you need to hear God's voice? Is there a special place that makes it easier for you to get in touch with the Holy One?
I hope that you have a wonder-full Monday, y'all!
Much love to you! Becky
Last photo by Just Us 3, creative commons
PS. I happened upon this commercial recently and it spoke to me--in a weird way! It reminds me of how crazy it is when we think we have to do everything ourselves. It reminds me Who holds the real power. It's so creative! Enjoy.